But it's not just the handfuls of M&Ms, it's also forgetting to track my points (I do the Weight Watchers Online program). It's eating lunch in the work cafeteria instead of something healthier brought from home. Its eating chips instead of a vegetable. It's deciding that, just today, I don't need all that water and diet soda is good enough. It's the little snacks throughout the day that individually aren't a big deal, but are the steps to having an unsuccessful week.
A lot of these bad habits formed while I was finishing grad school with excuses like "it's just easier to get something from the cafeteria/restaurant when I'm meeting with my group." Or "if I'm going to be alert enough to get this done I'm going to need something other than water." One step at a time, I formed bad habits. Perhaps the worst one, developed lately, is "I don't want to see the points value for what I've eaten so I won't track it just for today." As if ignoring the truth would make it untrue.
Its time to make changes and get back on track. I'll get back on track the same way I got off of it, one step at a time. This week is two big steps at once. The first is a weekly blog post, which will mark my loss or gain and a reflection on the reasons the scale loved or hated me this week. The second change is to track my points, no matter what. If I ate a meal that was 100 points, then I track it. If I had a snack that was only one point, I track it. Over the next few weeks I'll get back to a place where I'm eating the right amounts of the right things, one step at a time.
